You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
Hey I mentioned it in passing in the plug.dj room, but one of my buddies from OFT, a dude who goes by Sam Truth, got contacted earlier today by T-Pain, and discussions are going back and forth about them doing a track together, possibly with some other pretty big names involved as well. So he's basically moving up in the world.
Here's a song by him if y'all wanna give it a listen
I'm just kinda really fucking happy for him is all.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
Depressing thought: I will probably never be a professor
Like, i kinda want to be everyone, but i wanted to be those guys so much.
But i never liked IRC. Partly because it moves too fast for me. Everyone talks across everyone else and i can't follow the conversation. And i worry i'm committing all kinds of faux pas.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
See, that's the thing. I know I would like to master something to the point where I could be considered an expert on it, but I have yet to figure out what it is I'm supposed to master.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
As for IRC: I kinda felt the same way--it's a bit too fast-paced for me at times, and I'm never quite sure whether what I'm saying is socially appropriate--but I stuck around anyway once I realized I like the people there enough to do so.
Not to say I haven't made a fool of myself at times, but...*shrug*
...i really, really hate making a fool of myself. i stopped worrying about that for a time and promptly was a dick to a bunch of people IRL and accumulated a lot of horrible memories that nobody will let me forget.
i don't miss the drama back on TVT. But people there mostly seemed to tolerate me when i was being a dumbass, and they were all so smart and, idk, i really liked talking to those guys.
Besides, i figure everyone has problems. Though, i don't know if things got worse for Tzetze since i am completely out of the loop with everyone.
But unfortunately the kind of emotional stupidity I got myself into there can really wear on a person.
The year-long war of passive-aggression with Katrika comes to mind. You know we made up the day I got banned? I haven't spoken to her since, though.
Honestly a lot of the stupid fights I got into there just sort of blur together. I know a lot of the people there didn't like me, I don't remember why in most cases, and I really wish I could make it up to them and maybe they'd forgive me if they even still remember who I am.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
Oh, don't get me wrong, I hate making a fool of myself. But in the context of IRC, I feel like...in the long term, the two or three times I've made an ass of myself have been well worth the friendships I've made/maintained there. At least two people I met on #yackfest are people I'd now consider among my closest friends...
Also, mildly embarrassing confession: To some extent, I like having cool people like Buttercup and Fiora and Ponicalica in my IRC channel because I feel like that makes me cool by association. :\
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
Ponicalica used to kinda intimidate me merely because he's been a part of the community way longer than I have (and also because he's way smarter than me), but once I actually started interacting with him I realized he's not the kind of person who would look down on me for that.
As for Buttercup, it's kinda weird, but I only really started talking to her after I left TVT. She also falls into the category of "people I really really really wanna be close friends with but to this day worry about coming on too strong" and oh god now that i've said that in public she's totally gonna read this
^^ Do they even read this site? This thread is so big and updates so quickly that i imagine most posts here go unnoticed.
Same, regarding Ponica. Except, then i saw how disapproving he could be of other tropers (DLC's appearance in IRC springs to mind) and i started to feel intimidated by him again. >_<
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
They don't read this site, as far as I know, but I'm a paranoid mare. Mare-anoid.
No, that sounds stupid, we'll just stick with "paranoid".
It's in the single digits here. It's a shame; I'm in the mood to go walk around and take pictures but it's much too cold.
^ Solstace hangs out in #yackfest but he doesn't usually venture into #trashheap
I wonder if it's stress that makes me feel like this.
I've been saying a lot lately that I feel like I did back when I was 15 lately, and that was my freshman/sophomore years of high school, which was very stressful.
Currently, I'm trying to hold down a job and also find a better one so I can move out of the house. Also quite stressful.
Then, never mind him. He obviously could have been more patient with people he didn't get along with.
There were other tropers i thought were cool. Solstace, for instance.
Solstace was cool. We did a song together once under the name Portland Patterns. I kinda wish we could collaborate nowadays since I've gotten so much better than I used to be, but, oh well.
I confess that one of the reasons I joined Indie Impressions and one that I got so active again on OddFutureTalk was that I wanted a space where I could hang out with people who didn't know any tropers, and more importantly didn't know my history on TVTropes.
Unfortunately that's mostly failed. The former's a wasteland in that it's never active, the latter is mostly people being stupid to each other with the sole exception of the nighttime Shoutbox community. Even then, it depends on the night.
No offense to any of you guys I just....kind of wish I'd never found TVTropes at all. Maybe I'd be more normal if I hadn't.
I also really wish people would take a bit more interest in me.
I've always been so hesitant to even so much as imply that because I've had it beaten into my head (again by various tropers) that that's "attention whoring" and therefore very bad. But I mean I just want someone to care about my music, or either my twitter or tumblr or...I mean fuck, something I do. I'm not that boring am I?
Maybe this Livestream thing will get people to pay attention to me I don't know.
i can't really picture what i'd have become if i hadn't discovered TVT. Before i found the site i was a completely different person in many respects.
To be honest, i've similarly wanted to hang out with non-tropers, except i kind of don't want to be somebody people recognize online under another name. In part, it's because i keep seeing tropes namedropped on other sites, so attempting to make friends under a new identity would feel dishonest.
I don't really think I've seen any mention of TVT on any of the other online communities I've been to, much less specific tropes.
Of course maybe that's the problem. Maybe the few intelligent online communities are so closely interwoven that by blowing my chances on TVT I've blown my chances in general.
Don't say that. You're not going to die. And i don't think you're boring.
And, sorry. i could probably make more of an effort to follow people's creative endeavours. It's not just you, i just don't really follow anything consistently.
I probably am, actually. My health is worsening by the day and I have pretty much constant chest pain nowadays. I'm just sort of waiting for the final switch to trip.
I appreciate the well-wishes though, and I'm glad you don't think I'm boring.
And, sorry. i could probably make more of an effort to follow people's creative endeavours. It's not just you, i just don't really follow anything consistently.
@ Anonus: TVT affected me for the worse as well as for the better, but maybe that was necessary. There are some things a person like me can only learn the hard way.
This is the beauty of living in what the far-right would have you believe is a socialist healthcare system. My mother makes just enough money that we don't qualify for...well anything really.
The only thing I got from my TVT experience, apart from my gf, is that it is absolutely necessary for people to be called out for their terrible opinions.
The only thing I got from my TVT experience, apart from my gf, is that it is absolutely necessary for people to be called out for their terrible opinions.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
TVT definitely had some negative effects on me, but when I think about the positive effects it had--namely, introducing me, directly or indirectly, to almost every person I now call a friend, as well as my beloved Anonus--I think it was worth it in the end.
Also, Mojave, I know what you mean about wanting people to show more interest in you. I feel like a lot of times I end up being an "also-ran" in my circle of friends. I dunno, maybe that's not reflective of reality, but I do feel that way at times.
And of course, the irony is that when I am in the spotlight, I just freeze up and turn into Fluttershy.
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Hey I mentioned it in passing in the plug.dj room, but one of my buddies from OFT, a dude who goes by Sam Truth, got contacted earlier today by T-Pain, and discussions are going back and forth about them doing a track together, possibly with some other pretty big names involved as well. So he's basically moving up in the world.
Here's a song by him if y'all wanna give it a listen
I'm just kinda really fucking happy for him is all.
Man, those guys were so cool.
Like, i kinda want to be everyone, but i wanted to be those guys so much.
But i never liked IRC. Partly because it moves too fast for me. Everyone talks across everyone else and i can't follow the conversation. And i worry i'm committing all kinds of faux pas.
I'm not entirely sure I'd want to be Ponicalica considering that he hates me for reasons I've never been wholly clear on.
Also Tzetze seems to have a few issues so I'm not sure I'd want to be him either?
i don't miss the drama back on TVT. But people there mostly seemed to tolerate me when i was being a dumbass, and they were all so smart and, idk, i really liked talking to those guys.
Besides, i figure everyone has problems. Though, i don't know if things got worse for Tzetze since i am completely out of the loop with everyone.
I haven't spoken at length with Tzetze for a very long time, so I don't know either.
Frankly I'd like to forget most of the people on TVT I don't still talk to existed. Too many bad memories.
It was the first time in my life that i really felt happy for any length of time.
i was a lot happier back when i first joined TVT than i am now.
Yeah, me too.
But unfortunately the kind of emotional stupidity I got myself into there can really wear on a person.
The year-long war of passive-aggression with Katrika comes to mind. You know we made up the day I got banned? I haven't spoken to her since, though.
Honestly a lot of the stupid fights I got into there just sort of blur together. I know a lot of the people there didn't like me, I don't remember why in most cases, and I really wish I could make it up to them and maybe they'd forgive me if they even still remember who I am.
But that's all very silly. *sigh*
I really wish I felt comfortable talking to Ponicalica, since he seems like a decent enough person.
Buttercup helped me through some very tough times back in sophomore year, I don't know if she'd even remember me nowadays though.
I feel like I'm being a downer right now.
God it's so cold in my room even though I have the heater on.
I'm sorta resting against the radiator. There's a hailstorm outside.
Wow, that sucks.
Is hail common in your part of England? It's kinda rare around here. We seem to get snow, sleet, and rain, but that's about all.
It's not common, but not shockingly unusual. More common than snow that settles.
And just like that, it stopped.
Same, regarding Ponica. Except, then i saw how disapproving he could be of other tropers (DLC's appearance in IRC springs to mind) and i started to feel intimidated by him again. >_<
It's fine, I just get bothered when people talk about how cool he is, is all.
Whatever, though.
There were other tropers i thought were cool. Solstace, for instance.
I wonder if it's stress that makes me feel like this.
I've been saying a lot lately that I feel like I did back when I was 15 lately, and that was my freshman/sophomore years of high school, which was very stressful.
Currently, I'm trying to hold down a job and also find a better one so I can move out of the house. Also quite stressful.
Solstace was cool. We did a song together once under the name Portland Patterns. I kinda wish we could collaborate nowadays since I've gotten so much better than I used to be, but, oh well.I confess that one of the reasons I joined Indie Impressions and one that I got so active again on OddFutureTalk was that I wanted a space where I could hang out with people who didn't know any tropers, and more importantly didn't know my history on TVTropes.
Unfortunately that's mostly failed. The former's a wasteland in that it's never active, the latter is mostly people being stupid to each other with the sole exception of the nighttime Shoutbox community. Even then, it depends on the night.
No offense to any of you guys I just....kind of wish I'd never found TVTropes at all. Maybe I'd be more normal if I hadn't.
I also really wish people would take a bit more interest in me.
I've always been so hesitant to even so much as imply that because I've had it beaten into my head (again by various tropers) that that's "attention whoring" and therefore very bad. But I mean I just want someone to care about my music, or either my twitter or tumblr or...I mean fuck, something I do. I'm not that boring am I?
Maybe this Livestream thing will get people to pay attention to me I don't know.
i can't really picture what i'd have become if i hadn't discovered TVT. Before i found the site i was a completely different person in many respects.
To be honest, i've similarly wanted to hang out with non-tropers, except i kind of don't want to be somebody people recognize online under another name. In part, it's because i keep seeing tropes namedropped on other sites, so attempting to make friends under a new identity would feel dishonest.
I don't really think I've seen any mention of TVT on any of the other online communities I've been to, much less specific tropes.
Of course maybe that's the problem. Maybe the few intelligent online communities are so closely interwoven that by blowing my chances on TVT I've blown my chances in general.
Don't say that. You're not going to die. And i don't think you're boring.
And, sorry. i could probably make more of an effort to follow people's creative endeavours. It's not just you, i just don't really follow anything consistently.
No, wait, i think i misread.
You're not pretentious.
I probably am, actually. My health is worsening by the day and I have pretty much constant chest pain nowadays. I'm just sort of waiting for the final switch to trip.
I appreciate the well-wishes though, and I'm glad you don't think I'm boring.
It's alright.@ Anonus: TVT affected me for the worse as well as for the better, but maybe that was necessary. There are some things a person like me can only learn the hard way.
If your chest pain is that bad, is there no way you could get treatment for it?
I have no health insurance, so no.
This is the beauty of living in what the far-right would have you believe is a socialist healthcare system. My mother makes just enough money that we don't qualify for...well anything really.
Really?