You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
Just awoke from a 3-hour nap. Have the weirdest desire to go to Wal-Mart.
@Christmas creep: Normally I would complain about it, but it's going to be a welcome change from campaign ads so i'm willing to let it slide this year.
I am exaggerating, obviously. But my feet really do hurt quite a lot. So do my legs and knees.
Also, our delivery arm is apparently useless for some reason, because our entire shipment today was meant for the store in Wilkes-Barre (a good hour away from where our location is). So none of our orders were properly lined up with what we were missing. Some of the stuff we didn't even stock.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
ca: there's an early side-mission in Fallout 3 where you have to clear out raiders from an abandoned supermarket. Just when I finished, I realized you'd love the place.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
Also, describing a nightclub positively is weird when you've only been to a few and most of the time your experiences have sucked. And by you I mean me, of course. :P
Most of the time my sister was trying to get me to dance with girls, but when you don't know how to keep up in a club full of daggering ladies, well, all you can do is watch.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
I have never been in a nightclub, which is weird since this city is full of nightclubs.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
Same here.
I mean, hell, I can feel overstimulated from an active IRC channel; that shows you what my level of tolerance for social activity is.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
CA: Yeah. :/ Even when someone likes me, I feel like they're going to start treating me like the plague if they, say, rekindle things with an ex or move away or something. Even though I have at least one good example of someone I stayed friends with even after she hooked up with someone, it still bothers me because I feel like I'm always the best man and never a groom. :P
It's weird how much this video's ended up inspiring the end of Stuck at the Galleria. (And yes, this is sorta relevant to the part I'm writing-- well, actually, very relevant, but whatever)
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
My insecurities this morning are a bit different. I guess they're not so much fears of abandonment, per se, but rather a feeling that I don't belong and I'll end up alone in the end.
It's like...I know I'm not a "normal" person, and I'm not sure I would even want to be--most "normal" people strike me as dull. But as much as I'd like to reject mainstream culture, I'm not sure there's a fringe culture I belong to. I don't want to actively be antisocial, but I want to find a group I can identify with and it seems to elude me.
If this makes no sense, it's because I'm hella sleep deprived ATM.
CA: Yeah, sleep deprivation doesn't help. The funny thing is, I'm feeling like this and I actually slept well enough to have disturbing dreams last night...
I wished loved, hell, just liked myself. Sometimes I'm certain no could ever love me (and I mean in any sense, not just romantic). Fuck, I hate that these feelings come up whenever I try doing something to improve my life, or just make myself happy. Like, just talking to other people has again started bringing up feelings that I'm just a burden and people merely are nice to me because they need to tolerate me instead of actually liking me. I thought I'd gotten over this.
Ugh. But, looks like many people here are also having negative feelings, too :/
JZ: I know I'm lovable (my mom cares for me, you guys care for me, Ally cares for me), but sometimes I get discouraged because even with all that attention, I still don't see anyone that wants to, y'know, be a romantic partner or snugglebuddy or whatever. I've been better at not acting needy lately, but some things just upset me...
And it doesn't help that the disturbing dream I had last night was about one of the kids my brother was screwing around with, and it also also doesn't help that my Granny's sick and I'm worried about her, too.
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@Christmas creep: Normally I would complain about it, but it's going to be a welcome change from campaign ads so i'm willing to let it slide this year. George Lucas says hi.
I CANNOT BE GEORGE LUCAS
for one thing I am not nearly as rich
Say what you will about the G-Luke. Dude is nice.
Also, I just got back from work.
I can't feel anything from the waist down :D
I am exaggerating, obviously. But my feet really do hurt quite a lot. So do my legs and knees.
Also, our delivery arm is apparently useless for some reason, because our entire shipment today was meant for the store in Wilkes-Barre (a good hour away from where our location is). So none of our orders were properly lined up with what we were missing. Some of the stuff we didn't even stock.
Also, JZ: Mozart
Assassin poems, Poems that shoot
guns. Poems that wrestle cops into alleys
and take their weapons leaving them dead
ca: there's an early side-mission in Fallout 3 where you have to clear out raiders from an abandoned supermarket. Just when I finished, I realized you'd love the place.
except for the corpses. so many corpses.
^you've been in a nightclub? I haven't.
Ugh. But, looks like many people here are also having negative feelings, too :/