You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
The fact that I use so much GNOME stuff has me wondering if I should just switch to GNOME as my main desktop.
I wish there were a GNOME-based Ubuntu distro; I would totally just install that.
You are the end result of a “would you push the button” prompt where the prompt was “you have unlimited godlike powers but you appear to all and sundry to be an impetuous child” – Zero, 2022
It's hard to keep going sometimes. It seems that, despite all that life has given me,what I should be thankful for, because so many have so much less, it falls just short of what I need to make things work. You what kind of have to wonder what kind of place this world is, where one can be blessed with so much yet be so incapable.
Remember back in the 50s when they'd record like Elvis singing YOU AIN'T NOTHIN BUT A HOUND DOG and then they'd turn the record over and reverse it and it was all NYERP NYERP NYERP NYERP NYERP and people were all like, "That is actually the voice of Satan coming from that song."
I'm really sorry, FM. I wish I could do something to help, but all I can do is give internet hugs. I hope that helps even a little bit.
It always turns out the same anyways, and I can take care of myself.
She's drinking because she just learned her best friend died a year and a half ago via Facebook. She's cut herself off socially basically completely, she says it's because my dad hit on all her friends, but I highly doubt that's the whole story, considering they haven't lived together for like 7 years now. It's probably because she's ashamed because she's let herself go, but apart from her missing tooth it isn't something some new clothes couldn't fix. I wish she could find some other way to cope, her drinking is at least 2/3 of why we're in this mess. She won't even admit that she's drinking, but I can tell.
She really needs to grow up in general, she casts blame on others for pretty much ever problem and wallows in self pity a lot. Of course this is all from my rather jaded perspective, so reality may differ.
FM: Ugh, I'm sorry. -hugs- I had to be my mom's emotional crutch throughout high school a lot and had to deal with similar behavior; she never lived up to her own flaws and other people were entirely the problem. I don't know if I have decent advice, since I don't know if I did a very good job myself.
Wow, ESPN's coverage of Olympic happenings is completely hamstrung. Apparently they're not allowed to have video highlights at all, something no other sport does to them—they have to make do with montages of stills from fucking Getty.
I hear that NBC may indeed not be getting the 2016 Olympics, or that they'll be forced by IOC to carry it mosstly live. I'm hoping for the former, because NBC has sucked at this since 1988 and we really need ABC back. :P
ABC had covered the Games practically uninterrupted until 1980, when NBC got the rights for the summer games (and then ended up not being able to use them because we boycotted). ABC's last summer games was 1984; since 1988, NBC has covered every single summer games. The last winter games for ABC was 1988; CBS covered the 1992, 1994 and 1998 Winter Games and (from what I've heard) sucked even harder than NBC.
AU: I don't remember much beyond one of my friends at the time saying CBS's coverage (of the 1998 games, at least) was horrible, but I imagine they had many of the same problems with prioritization, bad play-by-play and misplaced nationalism that NBC does.
Doctor Who reference in Pokemon B2W2? Headcanon accepted.
FrictionalMinnesota: I had to be the crutch for my drunken old man. He was a self-centered, self-serving asshole who treated his two dogs better than us kids, but whenever his second wife started to toy with his emotions and threaten to leave him (and in all fairness it needs to be said he was a selfish asshole to her too.) He also plied himself with the booze -- on beer he was generally okay but on whiskey is when he got bad. Its whenever he was thick on the sauce that she'd come around and toy with him some more, which eventually ended with me one day at the store, and him blowing his brains out with a rifle while she was right there. I couldn't save him because he was wallowed so deep in his own self-pity that he couldn't see past himself. Even better, his selfish act of suicide left me homeless at that very moment, too.
At the time I was still a young adult and didn't know what the hell to think. Over the next several years leading up to now, it slowly dawned on me that his entire life, my old man was the only thing he cared about, but fully expected everyone else to sacrifice their time and effort for him. His death really was no loss at all. I do not miss him, but I suppose I should feel grateful for the lesson regarding people like them and to avoid them. I guess you're talking about your mother here, and it's sad when a child has to be the play parent to a parent. Whether she decides to move past this is completely on her, all you can do is carry on with your life, and it might even come to the point where you play the tough love card and just walk away.
I do love her, otherwise I wouldn't care about what she does with herself. And I know that she loves me too, more than anything. She just... is too wrapped up in her head to see that she's really holding herself back when she thinks she's putting me ahead, you know? And when I try and explain that to her, she thinks I'm being ungrateful. She's a smart woman (*Probably the smartest person I've ever met*), she just has a certain lack of maturity and lack of self-insight.
And I don't have the whole picture either. I don't know why she became ostracized from my family, I can't discern how abusive her relationship with my dad is/was (*On a disturbing note, I think there's an s&m dynamic in there, and in that case I really don't wanna know. at all*), and ultimately I can't really pass judgment on her because I simply don't know enough. I can try to help though.
Doctor Who reference in Pokemon B2W2? Headcanon accepted.
My old man was smart too, but aside from that he was an emotionally crippled manchild. He also played the authoritative dad card and later I'd have to babysit his crying ass like what I'm thinking your mother may be doing as well. I can't fathom how any parent could do that, but then again I'm not a parent. Everyone suffers the whole "nobody can understand my pain" crap but that's usually over and done with during childhood, lesson learned, move on; but some people choose not to.
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Fuck it.
She's drinking because she just learned her best friend died a year and a half ago via Facebook. She's cut herself off socially basically completely, she says it's because my dad hit on all her friends, but I highly doubt that's the whole story, considering they haven't lived together for like 7 years now. It's probably because she's ashamed because she's let herself go, but apart from her missing tooth it isn't something some new clothes couldn't fix. I wish she could find some other way to cope, her drinking is at least 2/3 of why we're in this mess. She won't even admit that she's drinking, but I can tell.
lonely.
I think I'm enabling her, but I'm not sure how to stop.
Will she listen to you if you try having a serious conversation? Or will she most likely get made/ignore you?
I have suffered by the rod of his fury,
He has guided me into darkness, not light.
He has walled me in so I cannot escape,
He has closed my ways with blocks of stone,
He has weighed me down with chains,
And when I try to cry for help
He extinguished my prayer.
Yahweh, you have heard my voice,
You have told me not to fear,
You have defended my cause,
Redeemer of my life,
Repay them, as their deeds deserve.
Nope, just Krzysztof Penderecki.
This is fun.
^ ^ Sorry to hear about that.
i get so angry sometimes i just punch plankton --Klinotaxis