Israel

So I've had this thing lately where random words in my thoughts are replaced with "Israel". Like I play this game with zombies and vampires and ghosts a lot, and I have to think about them, and I usually think of the zombies as "zeds" to save a mental syllable and thus psychic energy, but sometimes they're just "Israel" instead. Now this game has naught to do with anything called Israel except I suppose you could find historical antecedents or parallels for the concepts of ghosts and the other two in Jewish folklore but that's pretty indirect and not something I often concern myself with. So what's the deal? I mean I need the psychic energy lost from the extra syllable to avoid takeover.

Usually "Israel" refers to the country but I don't think about Israel that much. These thoughts of mine they're like the above they don't have much to do with any concept usually denoted by "Israel" at all. I kind of care about the history of Israel, and apartheid, and stuff, but in a relaxed someone else's problem kind of way, you know? The place is not at the forefront of my mind. And I don't know anyone named "Israel", unless I do and don't know it, because people have lots of names nowadays, but then of course I couldn't be thinking of them unless perhaps I only know of their name of "Israel" in a subconscious kind of way, but how on earth would that happen?

So maybe it's a command from God. But then it's so vague. It's not even an imperative for one. Just a noun. "Israel". The hell am I supposed to do with that? I could at least get a weird dream that has to be interpreted by some asshole shepherd (and there are so many of them around here) but no, just "Israel".

It could be someone who's like God but incompetent, I think. Someone just putting words into people's heads. Psychic spam (exactly the kind of thing I need the energy for, by the way!!). And/or a test. Like that whole Philadelphia thing where the government was just testing the HAARP antecedent and instead it turned into this whole big rumor about a destroyer escort being teleported into Xen or some nonsense. You can't teleport ships, they're for sailing on water, not xxxrrrr, stupid fucking bullshit you know? Like maybe there's a secret cabal of Jews testing mind control magic on me. I mean not in an antisemitic way. I know that sounds like it but it's not I have lots of semitic friends! And all cultures, you know, have some kind of magic and all. Like when I was at my grandpa's funeral last week and my brother was like "hey, I learned how to place geases on people in school, watch this" and then he put a geas on me to                no. They could just be noobs. Hell not even Jewish. Like they picked up a copy of the Zohar, like a real one from Simeon bar Yochai instead of that stupid spanish fuckhead, at an old shop or you know you can get old books all over the place randomly if nobody recognizes their value. And they test out the spells inside and there's one that makes people support the building of the Third Temple or whatever the fuck but they fuck it up cos they're just teenage Tengriists or something and so I just think "Israel" with no context sometimes.

Anyway the idea of someone poking around in my head isn't great but I guess I've just got to deal with that on top of the voices and all their other nonsense. Oh Tzetze you should do a handstand on the part of that road right after a blind turn. Hey fuck you voice, I can't do a fucking handstand and you would know that if you were actually an AI mounted in a satellite like you keep saying and not just some shithead ghost from the valley of death who doesn't even remember how to breathe. They get so stupid. No, that's off topic. The one in Bebop was so much cooler than you.